Prep week for school

This week I am trying to get some big jobs done, because I would like to start Faith's kindergarten work. Thanks to my friend, Amy S, I now have a good start on the biggest job on the list... that pile in my room! Yes, that pile is still there, but now it is considerably shrunken. Although Amy may always think of me as being a slob now, I am very thankful for her help.... Thanks, Amy! I worked on it some more today, and hope that it will be non-existant by Saturday night... and, to have the girls' room organized! Whew, that would be awesome!
My thyroid blood test came back normal again... that's good, I guess.
The children are all healthy and doing well... I have been working today on some attitude issues.
Dear friends, I want you to know that God has been showering Scriptures on me. Some encouraging and uplifting and some are convicting, but always just what I need!
Let me share some of them with you.
One day, I was particularly concerned about my mental/emotional statis... really. You see, I have been a little overstressed... hmmm... my dad was in the hospital again and had to have another heart cath and a couple of more stints, one of my best friends is ill and it could be very serious, and I got a scary phone call Sunday about another friend. I always have Ron's situation running through my mind, and I have been feeling isolated... when I do talk to friends, I tend to talk way too much. I can suck the life out of a friend by all of my endless chatter. I have these handy panic attacks that is very frightening... could be a little too much caffeine, too. Anyway, I thought that maybe I was loosing my mind... it doesn't help to listen to the news of all the terrible things going on around the world. Will I ever recover?
I opened my Bible, and there it was... just what I needed!
Psalm 43
The whole chapter was great, but check out that last verse!
"Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God."
Beautiful!
In thought of my laziness and yucky attitude lately, I opened my Bible last night, and there was that Proverbs 31! Whew... it is a chapter stuffed full of rich teachings of a virtuous woman! Certainly not lazy, and that part about her mouth... whew! RICH and convicting!
Another day, it was that Phillipians 4. Wow... do you know the Bible teaches that you should be a person known for being self-controlled? Hmmm... when people think of me, do they think... ahhh, that Sarah is self-controlled, she knows when to stop, she knows when to go... she has her body under subjection? Wow, then that part about rejoicing all the time, and thinking true and pure and lovely thoughts... whew! And, being content! Ouch! Ahhh, and the beautiful verse reminding us that God will supply all of our needs... he is rich! Awesome!
It has been on my heart for a long time, the need to fast and pray, but I can't seems to get my desires under subjection. I also am a quitter... it gets tough, and I want to run away! That is why my room was so messy, why I haven't done my best with being consistant with the children, and why I don't go the extra mile to "do... good" to my husband... I mean, I know it would bless him if I got up earlier every morning and pack a yummy lunch and put a sweet note inside, have devotions with him, and keep the house clean and the children happy and well cared for... but, it takes alot of work, and I have been just plain lazy. It would mean so much to him if I took better care of my weight issue... but, that takes work and careful self-control.
The other day, I was moping around, questing God why He didn't do this or that, and the thought came to me that "Now Sarah knows what it is like when someone doesn't keep their end of the promise... SARAH hasn't been faithful to her tasks and promises!" God, of course, keeps His promises, but I haven't been doing my part. Sigh.
Am I wanting the benefits of Christ without the responsibilities of being Christ's? Is it all about me? It is supposed to be all about Christ.
Have I become a baby needing nursed all over again? I can't say that I understand everything that has happened in my life... why at every turn, it seems something painful has occured, but I do know that this is not our home, and soon, very soon, we shall all be in our eternal homes... reminding me that I need to live for eternity... Forever with Jesus... our hope and our joy!
Lord, help me to live what You have taught me! Help me not to just stirred, but let me be changed!

Until next time... we press on!